(I loved you… )
Realistically speaking, what happens when two people are separated because of circumstances that can’t be helped? They break up… they try to move on and forget that nagging “what if… ”
You tell yourself that perhaps it wasn’t supposed to work out anyway, because life is the way it is, and people can’t sustain a relationship if they are separated by oceans and time. So you forget.
And one day, you get out of bed thinking that this day will be just like any other, only to be smacked in the face by that insidious thing called Fate.
I’ve said it on this blog before: trust is highly flammable. One little spark and it all goes up in flames, baby. I don’t appreciate it when guys play around with me. It’s not cool and I will have none of it.
You hurt me, but that’s okay. I’ve spent the past three years dodging bullets like you. The occasional hit is just a part of the job.
“You’re just like the rest of them and I regret you from the beginning to this end”
Addition: It should be simple. So fucking simple that it makes you laugh out loud at the thought of all those past relationships that were murky and unclear. I get that now, and I think I’ve found a path to wiser decisions.
Is this my own “Dear John” letter, T-Swift style? I suppose it is, and it’s funny because his name really was
Breathing out poison, breathing in forgiveness
Besides from the lure of a fit yoga body, practicing lets me access an inner sanctuary where I can really center myself and focus my thoughts. It’s actually sort of like meditating by getting physical.
I breathe in deeply and breathe out negativity.
I breathe in deeply and breathe out regret.
I breathe in deeply and breathe out frustration.
It’s 4:30pm here in Sydney as I am doing my readings for an assignment due later today.
Just had a moment of realisation that 2013 has been one of the best years of my life.
I started the year with a birthday, family and friends that I am lucky to know, and a life changing holiday through Vietnam and Thailand. Haha it’s funny, because it’s so hard to pinpoint or organize into words the change that has happened inside of me (is this unbearably cheesey?) All I know is that 2013 has been amazing so far, and I am THANKFUL! But more than this, I notice the difference in the way that I look at the world.
Your thoughts really do change your world.
I’m graduating this year, so it really feels like a new chapter of my life, one that will hopefully bring a new level of independence and discovery.
I am filled with excitement and energy :)
Cannot wait for the ups and downs of this new adventure! Bring me failures (because that’s a perfect way to grow) and bring me sunshine!
(I have never been so chipper before, wow)
If a girl had been worth having, she’d have waited for you?
No, sir, the girl really worth having won’t wait for anybody.
– F. Scott Fitzgerald
Don’t sit idly by as his life rushes forward. Keep living each day with the same rigour as if you had never crossed paths.
That’s the ultimate test; to see if two lives, two minds, two universes can collide without fatality. A soul mate isn’t someone who completes you. A soul mate isn’t someone who’s there every time you turn around. There’s no balance in that. I already have a shadow, and I don’t want another.
Find the person that expands your horizons and forces you out of your comfort zone. Find a love so adventurous that it make’s you swallow your fears.
Travel the world together. Recreate the world together.
Find the person that makes you feel strong enough and brave enough to change your life for the better.
No waiting involved. Life is too short.
I’m not in love and I haven’t been for a very long time. It’s ancient history, baby, and I’m not sure if this is a good or bad situation to be in. But hey, this post is not about my love life hehe.
This post is for all the girls out there who are feeling lost in their relationships.
“What happened to the perfect couple that I built up in mind? We strayed so far from who we used to be. I mean, everything would be perfect if we could just go back to how it used to be.”
Yes, at one time or another, I’ve harboured all these crazy emotions in my overloaded cranium. Goodness, I’m glad it hasn’t happened for a lengthy amount of time because, well, emotional stress makes me very mopey and a little chubby :)
Its hard to pigeon-hole this post, but perhaps it is a culmination of the countless scribbled down thoughts that periodically spring into my mind during sleepless nights.
I suppose I’m posting this because it was a recent topic of conversation between a friend and I. After getting back from a month-long holiday, I had dinner with E to catch up on the thick and thins of our youth.
The subject was dating (naturally)… and after a long session of omnoming, venting and laughing, we both realised one thing: E and I are too neurotic to be one of those casually cool chicks who date mysterious men on and off. Its not us and it is not what makes us happy. Its not like we figured out the meaning of life here, but it was important to me because we were finally able to admit it.
That night I laid there in bed for hours, unable to sleep thanks to the awful side effects of a Varicella booster shot I got earlier in the afternoon. As I rubbed tiger balm into the aches of my shoulders, my mind wondered onto what my conversation with E made me realize.
When it comes to love, I want simplicity. Straightforwardness. No games.
I need someone who makes me feel more than they make me think.
I find that I am always over thinking things, and it sucks because I want my life to be about how each day and each person changes the way I live my life.
In order to do so I need to understand strength in patience and peace in forgiveness.
But what I think I need most is someone who needs me just as much as I need them. And for once in my life I will be unselfish.
Finally! Frida graced the Victoria’s Secret runway last night :)
She is so stunning. It’s about time!
Cannot wait for the show to air on December 4th!
A behind the scenes photo of Karlie Kloss at the Oscar de le Renta 2013 fittings. This is so reminiscent of Grace Kelly at the 28th Academy Awards.
Completely plausible explanation. You see, I fell into a crevasse whilst I was trekking through the Peruvian Andes and just managed to make it back to civilisation by the skin of my teeth!
It was tough and at one point I had to pull a Bear Grylls (you know what I mean, and if you don’t… you never will).
But I made it back alive, and in honour of my dedication and will to live, I propose that we never speak of my disappearance from the blogosphere again :)
Here’s me being rescued by a gentleman that looked suspiciously similar to Jake Gyllenhaal.